Poetic Thoughts: The Evolution of Me
Blog Post 2 has ARRIVED!!! My monthly blog has turned into a whenever I get around to it blog. Sheesh! What can I say, life be life’n.
Today I am posting poetic thoughts after writing two completely different blogs that I spent precious time on but in the end just didn’t make the cut.
Below I have included 2 versions of Poetic Thoughts: The Evolution of Me. The first version is cleaned up, edited and formatted with stanzas by ChatGPT (free version) and the second version is raw and unedited. I call it an AI Collab because I made a few changes to the AI version. I requested to keep my voice and change very little of my wording. What you see is the final result.
Please comment and let me know what you think about the AI collaboration vs my original words. Also, what do you think about AI being used in art, music and literature. I’m of the opinion that it should have it’s own sector and not be included in people art because it’s not human, it’s a tool. AI should have it’s own Music Charts and Awards, AI Movies, Videos, Books, blah blah, etcetera etcetera.
I know that it’s more complicated than that but I’m saying as a macro solution it should have it’s own sector. Maybe on a micro scale individual works could be authenticated, verified, show the percentage of work that’s the individuals and the percentage that is AI.
I only have ideas and more questions than answers and “they” may already be creating and doing what I mentioned above but my point is this, it’s here. No point in complaining. Let’s give it a place; create a space and learn as we go because IT-IS-HERE and it WILL take up space…whether you like it or not.
Time brings about change so get with the times and change or get left.
On to the poetic thoughts.
AI Collab
It’s hard being so in tune.
My body, spirit, and mind are deeply intertwined.
Aligned.
Connected.
Exposed.
Sometimes it’s beautiful.
Other times it’s overwhelming…
a knot in my stomach,
a reminder that simply being alive comes with layers
I didn’t ask for.
I’m aware of the illusion of control,
yet still at the mercy of the unknown.
I have to die one day,
and with each breath, I get closer.
When the feeling turns dark,
I try to disconnect
to zone out, self-medicate, disappear
but instead of numbing,
the feeling thickens,
quickens,
becomes heavier than before.
It’s amazing I haven’t lost my mind.
Instead, I’ve grown stronger.
Wiser.
Like training:
each session builds capacity,
each struggle builds endurance.
My skin is thick now.
And honestly?
I’m tired of performing.
The social dance used to be fun—
a little reality cosplay.
Pick a character, put on the costume,
and hope it’s socially acceptable.
People love when you stay in the role.
But I’m changing.
My personality is evolving.
And the performance no longer fits.
I’m ready to be authentic.
No forcing.
Relaxed.
Soft.
Loud.
Wild.
Saying less.
Feeling more.
The evolution of me
feels like riding a massive wave
with average skills..wobbly
but I keep waking up,
so I keep stumbling forward.
Raw Version
It’s hard being so in tune...my body spirit and mind are deeply intertwined
I am aligned
Sometimes its a beautiful experience
Other times I am overwhelmed and sickened to my stomach
Overwhelmed by being alive
Delusional about the control that I have
and being at the mercy of the unknown
I have to die one day and with each breath I get closer
When the feeling is dark and scary I try and zone out, disconnect, self medicate
But instead of distracting myself the depth of feeling is quickened and thickened
Making my awareness almost unbearable
It’s amazing I have not yet lost my mind
Instead I am stronger and wiser
It’s like training, with each session you grow stronger and more capable
With each struggle I grow my tolerance and endurance
Rising like the phoenix from the ashes, renewed
and I am tired of performing a character that no longer resonates
Sometimes the social dance is fun
It’s like reality cosplay, you put on your costume and pic your character
Whatever you choose, people expect you to stick to it or at least be socially acceptable
That’s been my experience
My personality is evolving
I am ready to simply be authentic
No forcing
Being relaxed
Saying less
Being soft
Being loud
Being wild
The evolution of me is like riding a massive wave with average skills…wobbly
But I keep waking up so I keep stumbling forward
Which version do you like better?
Rate my AI Collab 1 to 5 Stars
Criteria
*Did AI keep original voice?
*Did the edit and format improve flow and clarity?
*Did AI keep original message?
*Did it improve original delivery?
On a different and final note, can you relate to any of my sentiments? Do you have any of your own?
12/16/25
